Billie Lord Admits he feels "sad but grateful" as he marks his mother's eighth anniversary By Carrie Fisher death

Open about her complicated feelings about the tragic event, Lorde shared a throwback image of herself with her late mother as well as an emotional tribute. via Instagram Friday, December 27.

“It's been 8 years since then my mother is dead. As my son would say "That's a lot!" I always dread this day. I spend a lot of time leading up to it thinking how awful I'm going to feel,” Lord, 32, wrote, “and my fears are usually justified. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me. But when my children wake up the dark clouds disperse and make way for bright shining sunshine. His death anniversary is like an emotional tropical storm. It rains a lot during the day but the light in the middle of the storm is more beautiful than any day without storm clouds. There are no rainbows without rain."

The actress went on to draw an analogy to explain how it felt to struggle with her feelings of sadness.

"There is a great Anne Lamott Quote, sadness is 'like having a broken leg that never fully heals - that still hurts when the weather is cold, but you learn to lip dance'. And that describes how I feel today," Lorde wrote.

She continued, "Yes, the sad weather is cold and yes I may have a pimple but I'm absolutely dancing through life (oops did I quote Wicked?). And I'm actually a better dancer with my lips. My sadness gives me all the little moments in life. Gave deep appreciation. So sad I see the magic and I know it's a part of the joy. Desire. The void. And it's a deep way of coexistence ❤️.

Since Fisher's death, Billie has welcomed son Kingston, 4, and daughter Jackson Joanne, 2, with the couple. Austin Rydell.

Fisher Died in December 2016 After suffering a heart attack at the age of 60. A day later, Fisher's mother, Debbie ReynoldsDied of a stroke at age 84.

In the passing years of his mother and grandmother, Lord often Open about her loss.

Last year, Lord Anniversary celebration Another heartbreaking post with his mother's death.

"It's been 7 years since my mom died (but who's counting? I guess?)," Lorde wrote in December 2023. "Each anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief. Some fuel me with rage, some make me cry all day, some make me feel isolated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for not feeling anything, and Someone makes me feel all these things at once."

D Scream Queens The alum also admitted in December 2021 that processing grief is "never easy".

“I am one Different stages of grief Every moment of every day,” Lorde wrote via Instagram. “My grief is a multi-course meal with many complex ingredients. An amuse bouche of bargains and then a raging appetite with a side of disappointment, receptivity to entrée and of course a slight reluctance to dessert."

He continued: "And that's how grief should be - all together - in fact there is no 'should' of grief - grief is whatever it is for you and that's how it should be."