The actor "30 rock" was holding the gun when he left, fatally striking with the cinema and hospitalization of the director Joel Souza. Although he managed to make a full recovery and finish a movie with Baldwin's inclusion, the actor still struggles to be treated with tragedy.

The actor "Supercell" is reflected in Tragedy in its new series of Reality TLC, "Baldwins", which is set up on the premiere on Sunday, 23. February. In the clips was released in front of the Prime Minister, he and his wife, Hilaria BaldwinDiscuss the influences that fatal shooting had in his mental health.

"This is only surreal," Alec said to his wife in the comments overwritten PeopleMagazine. "I mean, I can't even believe we're going through this, and I always feel more in pain because of you, because I think of myself, I'll just try to go through it, and I think it's what's done to you and how much you hurt and all. "

"It was terrible last year. There were times in bed. I would go: 'Wow, my children.' I can't get up. 'It's not like me. I'm not like in any way. Never," added is in the confessional.

During the premiere, the former Yoga instructor revealed that her husband fought with an obsessive compulsive disorder (CSO).

"Everyone who is near Aleca saw his fall in mental health," she explained. "It was diagnosed with PTSD, and he says in the darkest moments," if the accident had to happen today, why am I still here? Why couldn't I be me? ""

At one point in the episode, Alec reminded him trying to answer a friend who asked how he works, but he didn't know how. "You wake up in the morning and you're like that, 'God, why did I wake up?" "Hillary said.

Alec replied, "I said," I'm happier when I sleep than I woke up. "" Continues to go for his seven children: Ilaria Catalina Irena, 2, Eduardo "Edu" Pao Lucas, 4, Romeo Alejandro David, 8, Leonardo Ángel Charles, 8, Rafael Thomas, 9 and Carmen Gabriela , 11.

"I look at the kids and see how hard we try to create happy for them, even if we mask things for ourselves," Hilary says during the Prime Minister. "I know that what we pass is perhaps unique, but every family passes through hard times, and that is something we can feel the community of support, knowing that we can do is give our best and try to make our children happy, so we do it. "

"Sincerely, from the bottom of my soul, I don't know where I would be if I didn't have you and these kids pass through this. I would never do it. Sometimes I would say," Why did I have seven children? Why do we have seven children? "And I realize, to help me with me to report to you through this situation," Alec agreed.

Although her little can't understand what is happening, Hillary said that her older children "have consciousness" about the situation, considering that the possibility for the actor to face prison. Unfortunately, she continued to say that younger children "don't know the life" without "rust" drama, because the shooting happened in October 2021. years, and the trial was not rejected with prejudices until 2044. years. Years.

"They had some really unhappy realization about things that happen," Hillary explained. "Life will be different forever. Hallyna lost his life in the most interesting tragedy, the son lost his mom. We will feel and forever wear this pain. This will be part of our family story."

"The Baldwins" premiere on Sunday, 23. February at 22.00 ET on the TLC.