In his new memory, Amy Duger King Recalled how close he was with cousin Josh Before he titled his scandal - but he does not recognize the person he now.

"Growing up ... We had a lot of fun," Amy, 38, said exclusively Our weekly Before the publication of his book, Holy Disruption: The more loudly with the truth squeeze the faceThe "He was such a funny kid. There he pulled and joked there was all kinds of () all kinds of pigs. ... we just had this connection."

Amy went to reveal that he and Josh (37) had "communicated too much for years". "He text me two weeks ago when he arrested me, sent me the mems," he said.

Josh was Arrested in 2021 Children are later sentenced to prison for more than 12 years to adopt and possess pornography. He has tried Appeal to his punishment Multiple times, no profit. TLC-which Duger-centric show broadcast 19 kids and counting And Calculation - In the context of the arrest of Josh, the family is fully cut off.

"I don't know that person," Amy said Ours His cousin. "So I don't miss that person. ... that's the most terrifying thing to know that you know your whole life and nevertheless, you don't know them at all."

A few years before his arrest, the news broke in 2015 Josh had humiliated several girls When he was a teenager. It was later revealed that four of his sisters were among the victims. Amy admits that it is "really difficult for him to follow the first scandal of Josh."

"But ... then ... thought that everyone had forgiven (trying). Everything was so healthy and well and you know, everyone people," said Amy OursThe "And so I reunited in my mind, for example, 'OK, if everyone else can forgive, I can too.' … I still love him, regardless of what he should. "

Forgiveness does not seem to be on the table this time. Amy had given to know if he had contacted Josh at all since being in jail Ours A firm no.

"This is a boundary that I will never cross," he said to his son Doston, quoting 5 of whom he shared with her husband Dillon KingAs the reason. "Now I have a child, now I know its beauty and their innocence, I will do everything in my power to talk about how I can protect the kids, and it's a boundary that I will never cross."

Amy reached Josh's wife, Bring the dues"When everything was going on," to say, "If you ever need anything I am here for you," then he "never heard back."

Although Doston is still very young to learn its details The history of his extended familyAmy mentioned that when he was a little older, he was not against him to read his memory.

"If I am interested in him, I would like to read it for him" OursThe "You know, I think you start to ask questions as you grow older, eg, 'Who is my parents? Where did they come from?' And so, when he grows up, I will have all the answers ”"

He continued, "I don't want to keep the truth from him. I think it's something that is the opportunity to speak life and truth in our children as parents and the truth

Holy Disruption: The more loudly with the truth squeeze the face Found on October 14.