When they dedicated the "Dawson Potok" first reunited in 22 years, the excitement buzzed through fans around the world.

Still, one absence left a heavy shadow. James Van der BeekOnce the face of teen television was missing like Dawson Leery.

Behind the scenes, the actor faced not only a disease that defined his last year, but also crushing disappointment the missing moment when he waited for a long time.

The beloved 48-year star revealed last year that he was diagnosed with a phase of three colorectal cancer.

His disease has reshaped her career, everyday life, and even his strongest possibilities. When the benefit of reunification was announced, Van der Beek is determined to attend.

However, only a satimmer before switching on the stage, he was forced to pull out.

"This benefit of reunion was something James waited because he offered him a change of tempo and could see so many people to love so special", source close to him divided by Daily mail. "The fact that he is unable to do so was a great disappointment."

Instead, his wife Kimberly and their six children stood in their place.

In a deep emotional moment, two of his daughters sing Paul Colea "I don't want to wait," the song is forever tied to the show.

"It was a moment in which his illness won, but to see how the event was done (fans, as I) his family feel and see his daughters sing," he added such an amazing moment, "added the source. "That gave him good luck."

Although James Van der Beek could not appear live, he sent an override message.

On the large screen, fans are transferred not only by his words, but also with his visibly weakened appearance. His framework looked weak, and the picture caused the social media concern.

The source recognized the difficulty, but he insisted that he was not without hope.

"All that drinks step by step and even though he looks fragile, if he doesn't work better than expected, you wouldn't see his family there," they shared.

The message was clear. Van der Beek can fight, but his presence, although virtually, was the testast of his resistance.

Insider added: "This journey will take a while, but he is positive and there is optimism that he will finish actually be fine."

He explained his absence of heart sincerity on Instagram. He acknowledged that "blurred" that "two viruses in the stomach" was thrown out of the Commission and kept it based "at the worst possible time."

"Despite all the effort ... I won't be there. I won't get to stand at that stage and thank each soul at the appearance of me, and against cancer, when I needed it the most," he wrote.

In his sideful video, he said, "I've been looking forward to this night for months and months since Michelle Williams told me I can't believe I'm not there. I don't want to see my beautiful ones, my personal personally."

He continued with deep gratitude for the event and his supporters, saying he wanted to stand on stage to personally thank everyone in the theater, from Ban and crew on the fans. He also praised his generosity and called them the best supporters in the world.

Van der Beek concluded expressing how deep humbly felt supremacy for the event and extended the hearty gratitude to each person who enabled.

For those closest to him, the power outside der Beek lies not only in medical treatment, but in his prospects.

The forecast, insiders recognize, "is not the biggest", but he remains determined. The source explained, "Van der Beek fight and feels hope that his battle cancer is something that he will actually win."

Even when the days become heavy, his spirit does not fail. "And while there are certainly bad days," the source revealed, "always everyone with a smile on his face."

His optimism stretches into the future as Insider noticed, "he wouldn't like anything more than having another one of these gatherings in which he is 100 percent healthy the next time he does and he doesn't want to miss another."