Dominant Calins He may not imagine his life with 5 children for himself, but he will not have any other way.

41 -year -old Collins writes through "My younger self does not want and does not want motherhood," Instagram Friday, August 22.

Collins explained that he "talked so much about it" because he wanted "before my wedding, someone used to call me God's heart in the form of a family."

"I hope I have seen fruitful and trusted families to grow up," he shared. "I hope I know the truth about the blessings of the Bible and the children. I hope I understand the provision. Nobody talked about it. We just do what is right between our own eyes and our own skills but in the end, he wants God to dominate. He wants your surrender. He wants your fears and failure. And he turns them into a beautiful garden."

He came in conclusion, "I never wanted this life. I never wanted what I didn't understand.

In the clip, Karissa pose with her and her husband Mandre Collins' 11 children In front of their house. "I don't want the kids to my little soul ..." he wrote in the video when lip-sinking lyrics from Taylor SwiftIts track "I forgot that that was your existence."

A month before the post, Karissa shared that he and Mandra were expecting another child. A few days later, Carissa declared that he had abortion and planned to pass fetal tissues naturally. She had previously faced three pregnancy damage.

After sharing her abortion, she reacts when Karisha shared a video of her kids hitting her stomach. Karisha mentions that he Not a fan of "debate" And did not post videos for followers.

"I am apologizing. When I posted that video, what else was in my mind was not at all in my mind," he said in a ticket video then. "I never thought of it that way. It was a nice moment with me and my kids. I didn't think anyone would even see it."