Jojo Swa It can be self-proclaimed "Gay Pop CEO", but in a powerful new interview on "we need to talk," the entertainer opened around her life to rarely see the fans.

When it comes to her experience "Dance Mame", Jojo Siwa wanted to set the records correctly as she opened about the emotional toll of growing up on the camera, while clarifying that she did not look at her times on the show as abuse.

"To me, that is whose opinion that I needed and valued," Siwa said Paul C. Brunson Her moms Jessalynn. "It's something I'm struggling now that I'm older, you know, they don't need people's approval because he still doesn't need the world, but I still can't look at my mom and my partner."

Siwa became the name of the household thanks to her relationships greater than life, a bold personality and fierce determination on the hit reality. But he admits that the environment on "dance moms" was far from healthy, especially for young, impressive girls.

"He was a sink or swam," she explained. "Very wild, not normal, such a unique environment you can't recreate."

Looking backwards, Jojo said he was never considered "emotionally abused" of the trainer Abby Lee Miller. Instead, she recognized her early on how high-stressful dynamic emissions dynamics worked behind the scenes.

"I would know: Let's take TV show, B. Abby just came out on this heated argument with the manufacturers that no one goes see and she took it out on me, all well, you know what I mean?" She said. "Of course, I can be a shacking bag for 20 minutes."

But not everyone could stop the way he did.

"Many people have different sensitivity. It's something I had a nulty sympathy five years ago, and I was checked online. People said," Hey, everyone's experiences was different. "And they were so right."

Jojo admitted that some of the deepest wounds did not come from adults on the set, but from other girls.

"You can watch my self-confidence throughout the season," she said. "It was the trust of people who were at the same level, those were my friends, it was because of the same suite and saying" Oo Jojo "."

One moment, it is especially chased.

Recounting memory to leave during the Hangout Hotel, Siwa described how one girl refused to give her ice cream because she wouldn't leave her room down, like her mom taught.

Jojo explained that there were seven of them, but she returned six ice creams, and she surrendered to everyone and walked past Siwa. "These are things that stick to me."

She also discovered that her long-term uncertainty about her singing her voice from her time on the show. "I was told by some other girls I couldn't sing with them because I wasn't a good singer," she explained. "Today, I leave every shooting session crying. I won't do lessons because he makes me feel like that."