About three decades later, Monica Levinsky Reflects on his relationship with him Bill Clinton - and later.

"I think, you know, what we see in today's world and as an adult woman-I hate to break it to any 24-year-old kids, because I know from 21 to 21, you think you know everything you think. You are like, 'I'm in adults now. I know all. 'I'm so sorry to tell you, you'll look back this time. I think, 'Oh, a little 20 years old me', "Levinsky Wednesday, Feb 26, said the episode of the episode "Call his parents" Podcast "Yes, no. So you know, I thought it was something that wasn't it, and my feelings were real. And the people talking about it were untrue that it was very frustrating and painful. "

Levinsky became a house name in 1998 when his two -year relationship with Bill, who was married Hillary ClintonWas published. Bill was accused of the House of Representatives but was released from all charges in the 5th. He was in the office until his second term ended in the 21st.

A few years later, Levinsky is hoping Re -claim to his identityThe Levinsky said, "Although I will always define my history, I am defined by my present too."

Scroll below to read Levinsky's largest manifestations in "Call his parents":

How should the matter be handled

After the news breaks MatterBill had made a public statement that he claimed that he had no sex with Levinsky. Looking back, Levinsky thinks that it should have been managed in a different way later.

"I think that the right way to handle such a situation is probably not anyone's business and finds a way to resign, or find a way to stay in an office that was not false and no young man started on the earth under the bus," said Levinsky. "At the same time, I'm listening to it to myself and it's like that, 'Okay, but we're talking about the most powerful office in the world.' I don't want to be foolish. "

After this scandal, Levinsky apologized to several public - but claimed he did not accept them in exchange for anyone involved.

Levinsky said, "I have a handful of people who were involved at this time that I am going in different ways, those who admit that they willing they liked different," said Levinsky. "You know that there was no one in sorting the upper-vajd names involved in the investigation and I am really grateful that I am in a place where I don't need it anymore."

Asked if there was that time, he thought he had to apologize, Levinsky replied, "Oh, sure."

"Okay, I think this is, you know, and it's something I don't do - I don't know that I still completely unpacked it for myself," Levinsky said more. "I think that I have a lot of time with writing, it has an idea like me and I just sort the seeds and just give up, I like, 'Okay, some of my versions, it is finding the way to get out of a page,' but I think my life has been made more, as it made my life more, as was more than me and more, as much as me and more. Me and many more was, as me and many more, though, although I will always define my history I defined by my present and it is - it is important ""

After the relationship

Levinsky's "many" was rock-down after the news broke.

"I guess that whatever the layering is, whatever happened in the news that day, whatever it was, it was too much," he said. "And I kept thinking, okay, I was the first two weeks of the investigation, I had no therapist, I couldn't go into the drug. And finally I was able to get a physician who had to be a forensic psychologist, who was amazing, Dr. SushumThe I am grateful to him today. And I remember I remember, 'Okay, I'm going to call him. And if she answers I am staying. And if he doesn't, I'm out. 'So I think for me, it was Rock Bottom. "

Navigating his scandal, Luinsky manages to be a lawyer in favor of cyber bullying. "What experience I have experienced and why I care about anti-anti-anti-anti-youth now, because I can understand what it is on online and social media," he said, "he said. "It literally seems to be laughing at you the whole world. And it is destructive. "

He has considered changing his name

As he moved forward, Levinsky admitted that he had considered changing his name. Levinsky said, "Of course there was a time that I considered it, except, I couldn't even see the reality of the world that we lived," Levinsky said. “How will it actually work? I'm going to walk on the street in LA, where I was updated and rushed with someone and they would say 'Monika' and I (say), 'Oh, my name is Rebecca now.' "

Levinsky thought about changing his name on his CV thought that he would be recognized if he had left an interview. As time goes on, Levinsky "came to feel very sightly" that he didn't want to change his Monika.

"Why do I need to change my name?" Levinsky Dr. "I'm betting no one has asked the bill, will he ever think about changing his name? Okay, I got because he was the most famous person at the moment and the President and so on. But the only idea cannot even cross one's mind to any human. I am sorry for a lot of decisions that I did both before I '98 and Post '98 I am a man. But I am not ashamed of who I am. "

Levinsky's name has now played a role in why he did not get off online dating. Levinsky said, "A part of why I didn't dating online is the whole thing if you don't want to use your own name, you are starting something by lying," said Levinsky. "It doesn't seem perfectly right to me either."

His dating life is now

When there is Levinsky "Always date," He was not fully successful. He said, "I was someone who wanted to marry and keep the baby and I naturally made that point a kind of past, so I think it was a focus for a long time, but it was definitely, my dating life was complicated, I thought, he said," he said.

Levinsky said he had a "couple example" where people did not try to dating for the right reason, but he was confident of his "bulls - detector".

"There is a broad spectrum of how closeness goes after something like this, and it is like it, I mean, thank you, no one ever asked me to wear a beret in the bedroom, but I mean, it's complicated," he said. "Look, I think our level of comfort, and it can be generation, but I think that the level of ease can be a sense of your own sexuality that can be a layer that you can become a level that you are sexually humiliated when you are sexually humiliated when you add many to us. It makes it more complicated "

Levinsky, who does not drink, is not 100 percent transparent, he thinks that he may have more closeness if he consumes alcohol. "I joke now, if I still drink, I will probably have a lot more sex," she made clear that she was "casual sex", "she said.

Navigate power imbalance

In Levinsky's mind, the imbalance of electricity was nothing that "spoke a lot" about three decades ago.

Levinsky said, "It is not sexual abuse", "therefore, therefore, there is a level of cens cammeys and at the same time I should never have in that position because of energy mobility and power differential."

If he had a piece of suggestion, he could say his 22 -year -old self, Levinsky said, "Don't go to Washington."